Well, this weekend has been the most taxing weekend of my life. haha. To put it quite bluntly...which is what a wise man said to me Friday night. And I took his advice. It took me a while to do, but I think I'm starting to be able to do it. Which is a good thing, isn't it?

For now, it stings a little bit more than I can bear sometimes, but you know what? It'll be better in time. I know it will.

But you know what? I feel like I should be fighting for this. I feel like I should say everything that's been running around in my head to him because I believe that he needs to hear what I have to say. And this is the first time that I really don't want to back down with it. The first time that I want to actually fight for it. I don't know why... I mean, what does it matter, you know? He told me to think at things in the way of "will it really matter in a few months, in two years?" and you know, I believe the answer to that is yes because I believe that everything you do matters. Every choice you make matters. And blah, that whole conversation just made me frustrated. But whatever. I should talk again. Let it all out because what do I have to lose anymore? Exactly. Exactly. So I should take that jump and let whatever may come, come.