There's one particular word that I despise and get let down so many times by. I should've known that it would happen... and I should've known that I  would overreact to it happening.


Forgot.  "I'm sorry, I forgot." .... Well that's just great because  just what am I supposed to do now? How can you forget someone you consider to be important to you ? How can you , especially when you know that that person has had a rough couple of days and is still upset?  I guess I'm really not all that important to him.

I feel so hurt by the people who are important to me and it sucks because I can't talk to anyone because the people who I want to talk to aren't near me right now.

And I hate this uncontrollable crying. I hate  that I can't stop. I hate that there's this pain in my chest because of her and him and my whole situation.  I hate that I don't have the means to live independently from my parents. I wish I lived on my own  and had a steady job. I wish I didn't care so much about what they thought of what I do. I wish I had the confidence to do what I want to do and what makes me happy. But they still have a hold on me and i care too much.

I want to be able to go on a road trip and just drive and drive until something catches my interest, stop and explore, then get in my car and continue. I want to be able to not have to call anyone or be obligated to tell people where  I'm going....
to be free is what I want , and it's something that I'm having a hard time getting.

I wish to be understood without having to explain myself. Can't anyone read me?